Virtual Reality

[spittingblaze]

I remember it vividly. The pink fluffy slippers that encased and warmed my feet. The comfortable pjamas that warmed me. Completely sober I walked outside at around 1:00 in the morning, the sky utterly dark with only lamposts to light the street and then I walked along side them. I giggled as people gave me a variety of looks. I felt comfortable in my strange attire and the darkness eased my spirits. Nothing happened to me except safety and explicit peace.

[spittingblaze]

After coming out from the movies, the movie I saw, I remembered the sweater I left on a chair that I ate at with my family and when I went to that place. What utterly surprised and delighted me was that my lucky sweater was still there even after several hours.

[spittingblaze]

I don't know about the rest of the world but I know a few things about death, starvation, overpopulation and global warming. For my own peace my mind I keep out of those subjects most of the time, I do know that they seem so exgerated, their horrors seems so exgerated. Some people can go a month without eating and they think it purifies their body. Death of any kind, when I think of someone dying in someway I think they are rejoining a kind of force, blissful unifying voice or some kind of heaven. There's no hell in my opinion. And to overpopulation still exgerations. And all of these things I trust people who care about them to handle and they will probably make the world a better place. I am of the opinion that in this ever-expanding world and universe that may have never been created, it's nice to know that the things that I want can expand and expand, the good things and being in the vortex, my vortex and that somehow affects my own little world and sometimes the whole world in miraculous ways. It makes me feel better just affirming all this. And then I got up and danced.
I don't think the world is full of problems, it's full of solutions that everyone else is working on and caring about. There are problems only solutions to handle everything. And all I can do is live life blissfully. Ooh I am doing that right now on my own little mountain. It was so nice of the government to make the airspace above it my airspace.

[spittingblaze]

Celebs I don't really envy or hate. The media somehow is relative like the moral relativity theory in philosphy, each news reporter and outlet has conflicting opinions, they are there to entertain us and make their living. For me the movies they make, the plays their in and the books they write depending on which ones brings me a blissful distractions to some things I don't need thinking about. I guess sometimes they send me into the vortex, especially Oprah.

[spittingblaze]

Television, and politics though tis' something I never cared for- True Blood ended for nine months. And for about four months after that I invested my time in excellent things like sketching with two hands, sometimes cleaning, investing friendships and things started to happen. The more time I felt focused on the vortex and pleasure the more I got.

[spittingblaze]

Safety is something that I can master, tis' something I can attract on all occasions as I've been doing so lately and being friends with it has caused me blissful peace. Thinking about all the reasons why I am safe in any situations. My invicibility, the cuddling thing I imagined to protect me and most sane reasons. Safety is not elusive, tis' inclusive and there. I love it.

[spittingblaze]

The fortune I feel is magnificent, utterly consuming sometimes of my thoughts and my easiness of manner and confidence is probably what attracts all kinds of safely situations. It's probably the danger I don't expect anymore and the safety I do expect that makes everything so beautiful and peaceful and homey.

[zannie]

fifty7.jpgI love standing in link at the bank.
I love basking in the knowledge that I have generated all this money to pay for my training courses.
here I am again, counting thru the notes, oh look, 14 x £50..what fun, oh look, loads of lovely purple and silver £20 notes..what fun. How magic am I to have this pile of money, and each time I come into the bank to pay in the money, it takes the cashier longer and longer to count it all before I hear the thud of the stamp on the paying in slip..how did I get to be so lucky, how did this money game get to be so much fun

[spittingblaze]

I am sitting here and my skin feels a certain way. Chilly, a little funny and I love it!

[spittingblaze]

I am sitting in the darkness, in a small spot in the wood, branches and bramble are underneath and around me. I breathe in and out, in and out for a long period of time and I feel better.