Hi Guys,

I've not been on here in a long while although I do tend to browse through the threads every now and again as you guys are so helpful.

I'm having a bit of a panic and I need some help! While ago sometime last year I wrote a thread titled "Curious about this" talking about an Artis I seem to be having some sort of connection with he doesn't live here but he travels here sometimes for work but I have never actually met him but I felt good thinking about him so I continued.I alighted with him somehow as it manifested through his music video but thats it.

Of recent I have had a few dreams about us and they have felt wonderful so I milked them. No one knows his name as I have kept it to myself feeling better that way but I have shared with two friends that I have a this feeling towards a Artis and they have both kinder brushed it off as a crush. Anyway yesterday one of those friends sent me an email saying this looks interesting do you fancy going, we don't go out much and this would be used as our catch up session anyway low and behold its he's New album celebration party holy crap! feelings of un-worthyness has come up, panic has come up, I'm not at my ideal weight yet has come up, I'm not where I want to be in life has come up and I'm trying to keep them at bay not think about it too much but I can not help it. Is this actually happening wow!

Any help and understanding about this would be great.

Love you all


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