30 days of seeing the Vortex-version of people- and my relationships with them

[Lotusstar]

Nothing is more important then how I feel!!

YES, YES, YES, YEEESSSSS!!!!
It's true, it's true, it's TRUE!!!!

Whenever I put others first or care about them, I just switch and take care of myself FIRST
It's just natural
It's just normal
That's how life is working: ME FIRST


I love how I take care of myself and my feelings
I love how aware I am about my feelings at any time
I love how simple it is for me now to change my focus

I love how I practiced this and practiced this
It's FLOWING
It's EASE
It's NORMAL
It's RIGHT
It's GOOD
It's just simple

I feel pride about myself
I feel joy
I feel deep love for myself
I feel the connection with my IB
I feel the connection with my soul
I feel free
I feel open
I feel relaxed
I feel centered
I feel strong
I feel the energy that creates worlds flowing through me
I feel bliss bliss bliss bliss

[paradise-on-earth]

Good morning, wonderful people!

The relationship with ME, again


Specifically negative
-I know what the the pride of my life is. I celebrate it. I´m proud of how I live.
- I´m not quite there.

I want so much more.
More clarity in my expression.
More precision.
More specifics.
More feeling powerful.
More instant manifestation, the feeling of waving the magic wand and the universe responding to me.
I miss my magic power to CREATE what I want in very short time.
I miss the feeling of being in charge.
The physical world, reacting to my energy.
I miss the impressiv manifestations.
Or better... the CLARITY that I can´t hold of what I´m doing, yet.
I miss the CLARITY oh KNOWING what I´m doing.
I miss having names and phrases for it and feeling CLEAR about it.


generally negative
-I know what the the pride of my life is. I celebrate it. I´m proud of how I live.
- I want to be clear and fascinated myself about what I´m doing on a daily basis.
I want to feel really proud about me.


generally positive + new GRID
-I know what the the pride of my life is. I celebrate it. I´m proud of how I live.
- I recently wrote, that I live like in a mellow sanctuary- on a regular basis. I LIKE that.
I did that. I got there. That´s so good already.
I want more of that!
More of that images and names.
More of this proud clarity.

I want my life to feel esy and clear to me.
I want it to be thrilling and fascinating.
I want it to feel big and captivating.
I want it to be glamorous.
I want it to be multicultured, leading-edge and
cosmopolitic.
I want it to be about spirituality, leading edgenes
and beauty.
I want it to be sweet, kind and warmhearted.
I want it to be extensiv.
I want it to be highly influential.
I want it to be uplifting.
I want to work with fascinating, lovely, highly skilled people.
I want to cocreate with the best of their arts or science or interest.
I want to feel fascination- and fascinating!
I want to feel glamorous
I want to feel deeply respected.
I want to feel influential.
I want to feel uplifting.
I want to feel my empire, building.
I want to feel the wide span of what I´m doing.
I want to feel satisfied.
I want to feel really proud.
I want to feel fulfilled, while I´m going for more.
I want to be open for more while I´m deeply content.
I want to feel proud of what I´m doing.
I want to feel the perfect description and names for it at each time.
I want to catch up with me,
I want to KNOW what I´m doing.
I want to feel CLEAR about what I do.


specifically positive
-I know what the the pride of my life is. I celebrate it. I´m proud of how I live.
- I´m doing so incredibly well already!
I KNOW that!
It´s all so close.
I KNOW it´s the next step.
It all unfolds fast and almost instantanously.
I KNOW it´s there.
I´m so happy about my clarity, I´m so proud of who I am, already!

[chillinjoan]

[Lotusstar]

I LOVE MYSELF

Well, I am getting better and better every day
Releasing resistance day by day
Caring about my feelings first instead of caring for others first

Nothing is more important then to feel good NOW
Noone outside can ever give me what I need/want without MY alignment
So my alignment ist the most important thing ON EARTH


I can let others off the hook and care about my alignment
I just can love myself and not waiting if they will love me
I can love myself no matter how I am
I can love myself just NOW
I can love myself with everything I am

The love for myself IS alignment
Ahhh, what relief!!
It's much easier then I thought it would be....
It's much more natural them I thought it is.....


It's easy, it's natural, it's it's good, it's wanted, it's NORMAL.....
It's just what source does.....
I can see myself like source sees me....
I can do it
I can love myself no matter what!!

Ahhhhhhh, I just LOVE myself!!!!

[paradise-on-earth]

I see how it clicks.
I see him, getting me.
I see the shaddows slip away.
I feel his clarity, and his huge relief.
I feel his eagernes.
I feel his joy.
I feel his relief.
I feel how he enjoys the ease, and the flow.
I feel how easy and relaxed he feels.
I see him lighting up.
I see him relaxing and opening up, to relief and joy and fun.
I see the joy on his face.
I feel his lightnes.
I feel how he connects with himself.
I feel his eagernes.
I feel his love.
I feel the merging.
It feels SO GOOD!

[paradise-on-earth]

Ohhh I´m feeling freshly enlightened I answered Chiun´s question about our "happines-level", here http://www.abeforum.com/showthread.p...appiness-Level

and this is my post:




When I joined the Forum, there was a thread- renewed each month, where we kept track of how much time we might have been ITV.
Belana opened it, because of a quote from Abe, here is her very first post:

Originally Posted by Belana

Hi all,

Lately I've been reading some posts on the forum from people (newcomers mostly) complaining that although they are "in the Vortex almost all the time", manifestations are NOT coming.:? Sorry guys, but if you were really feeling good all the time, you'd be walking on water by now.

***

And this morning, while in the bathroom, preparing for the new day, I was thinking about this old Abe-quote which I will paste in a minute, and it inspired me to re-create the daily feel-good-thingy some of us were doing last week, and turn it into some GREAT experiment.

The idea is to first become a member of the Feel-Good-Club and then watch miracles happen. But not just anybody can join this very special club... in order to be accepted to the Feel-Good-Club you have to really DO something :

make a true commitment to do whatever you can to feel good for at least 51 % of the day, and make that commitment again every single day.

For the record, you make that commitment to yourself, NOT to me or anybody else for that matter. You can use this thread for that, but it's not obligated.

Just in case you would be thinking of joining, careful though, it's not without risk, ::LOLas you can see in the following Abe-quote:

You don't have to be locked on 100 % or 90 % or 80 % or 70 %. Do you know if you are locked on 51 % and locked off 49 %, things are manifesting in your experience ?

Imagine what 60 % locked on would yield to you. Get up to that and they'll call you amazing.

Get locked on 70 % of the time, they'll expect you to walk on water.

Far less effort. Enormous leeway. You cannot get it wrong, but you can hold yourself vibrationally apart from the things that you have identified that you want.

Abraham-Hicks.com Detroit, MI, 6/30/2001

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Belana

I joined the club from the very first month and was in it for a long time, and it helped me tremendously to become aware of my energy.

Today I believe that I´m feeling good much more than 51% of my time on a completely regular basis, normally I think it´s 80, 90 % and often even more. And even better: I´m not just in the lower states of the Vortex (being optimistic, feeling frisky) but often in the VERY high states as passion, deep peace and total love!

Still, "I´m not walking on water", even I improved my life-quality about 300% so it seems
That puzzled me a lot- and it threw me "out" big times, also for a long period of time

The specific dreams as tons of money, big weightloss, perfect health, this one specific Fred falling in love with me (ok, he did THAT) but even more, DARING to admit it- it still didn´t happen. And that´s because in the moment I thought about this issues, I mostly was OOTV (at least at "not feeling there"). And so- it couldn´t come.

-I became the most happy, blessed, clear, fascinated, eager person all around, with overweight, challenging health and not much money, looked at very lovingly by a nice cute silent guy.
That´s what is called "a mixed bag" by Abe (=mixed vibration draws mixed results). Not the worst thing, at all!


I FOUND the key to happines- unconditional happines.
I FOUND my power, my clarity,
I FOUND the tools to using the teachings practically.

ALL my relationships evolved in incredible ways.
I know that my health-condition (or the lack of perfect "health") is indeed the greatest gift for me, that not only helps but forces me into understandings and realizations that I couldn´t get before, without it.
My relationship with Fred is so incredible satisfying in vibration as I never experienced a physical relationship before.
I learned to UNCONDITIONALLY love my body and it´s unique beauty.
My house and property, that are "just" a wildernes or a home full of creative chaos and (Pixie-) dust- that I can´t mold into the dreamlike states as I could with lots of money, feels like a sweet blessed sanctuary for me, UNCONDITIONALLY.
The travels I could do with money, and that I can´t take now, make me feel fascinated and thrilled in ways I couldn´t see when I could take the physical journeys.

MORE is coming, and one day I will have it in manifested form, but it´s -almost - irrelevant for me, NOW. I want it, oh yes, but in the perfect unfolding with all the little incredible gifts that accompany the big desires- and that I forgot about. I know that it´s totally ok if it´s not yet happening. It doesn´t bog me down, any longer. It´s an adventurous, thrilling, fascinating challenge, but no pain. It´s a mysterious, fairytale pull, no disempowering kick in the a*. I KNOW I´m ready-ing myself for the huge MORE I always dreamed of. And I SO ENJOY THIS JOURNEY.
I feel as in Universes University for deliberate creation, -Art of Allowing and Science of deliberate Creation. Being the student AND a teacher!
I feel like constantly growing and evolving in huge steps- and almost with NO pain.
When I´m OOTV, it feels as "kill me now" but I know I can be back in MINUTES. I just don´t need to be OOTV for very long, because I know bulletproof what to do about it.
I was puzzled why I still feel so "normal"-without this walking on water- thingy and being able to instantaniously manifest, with a snip of my fingers (what really made me angry for months )... until I realized, that I wasn´t ready for being completely "un-normal" yet... I just yet didn´t WANT to be! Ups??

And you know what? Now I´m soooooo happy it is this way! I´m so grateful that the Universe didn´t deliver before I was ready, even I thought I would be.
I NOW DO IT MY WAY. Slow. Gently. Sustainable. Centered. Happy!!! I don´t need to show off, for the sake of impressing others, as long it doesn´t feel really completely good.
I can already see how this "sticking out completely" might be, one day. I wanna get there, oh yes! I always was a leading edger, but I´m holding a line where I´m not so far out that it becomes uncomfortable or even scary. Oh no. No leaving of comfort-zone for me, any longer!
I´m in a unique balance that fits me perfectly in WHO I AM- NOW. And now. And now! It´ll become more. But it´ll be "eternally incomplete", also... And I am SO ok with that.
"Satisfied with where I am, and eager for more", as Abe say. Sometimes really a bit more eager and sometimes a bit more satisfied But mostly- in a wonderful balance.

My last 10-20% where I´m not lined up completely are exactly THAT specifics that I need and want to chew sloooowly, step by step, while I grow and mold myself. I do it daily, I get incredible insights and align with my power. And: I also widen the gap, daily, again! I mold MYSELF- I feel like a peace of art, and I enjoy each day of the journey. The big targets, as Abe said, are the targets that pull us through our life and focus our desires- but the true GOAL is the way, the path. The joy, moment for moment.

"The Universe will not deliver until you are really ready.
It will hold back, until the perfect moment, the perfect alignment, your perfect readynes, is there.
It will unfold like a huge piece of art."
Abe

and brandnew, from Portland, 8-11-12:
The person who says they want alignment in every single moment
is someone saying that they have given up on expansion.
Abe

[Followingbliss]

This is fun!!
I'm gonna do this tomorrow yay I'm excited
I'd love to hear about the awesome results you guys have gotten..always inspires me to hear them
I'll read the posts though because I'm sure many of you have already shared.
Peace

[paradise-on-earth]

FB!




Specifically negative
-I want to feel good about this situation and -guy.
- Ok, let´s be detailed. I feel it´s better.
I´m somehow shocked. This feels big and ugly.
I wouldn´t have thought we would attract such.
I feel guilty to maybe have blown it up, made it more.
I feel a bit scared.
What an incredible jerk.
I´m so sad she attracted this, poor girl.
I thought she was vibing better.
It´s so ugly.
What a pile of sh* in our life.
I´m angry he messed it so up.
I´m angry that I didn´t do better to see him good.

generally negative
-I want to feel good about this situation and -guy.
- I wanna stop this sh*
This is headed wrong.
I wanna turn straight and towards ITV again.


generally positive + new GRID
-I want to feel good about this situation and -guy.
- It was big for all of us, but we all showed the kids how to do things in a gentleman way.
Shit happens.
We dealt very well with it.
It´s not my responsibility to vibe others into place.
She can deal with that.
Maybe it even shows what drama leads to, and that she doesn´t want that.
Maybe she needed that clarity.
I´m sure she wanted that clarity, it was in her vibe.
I´m so proud of her.
I´m so proud of DH how he dealt with it- and what a wonderful father and man he is.
I´m so proud about me, asking for help at the police. It was the right thing.
I felt the clarity in his answer.
It gave me, and all of us, such relief.
We reached clarity and strenghts, again.
We took the path of least resistance, and the path was as easy and pleasant as imaginable under the conditions.

We all stayed away and clear from disempowerment.
It all was clear, friendly and very cultured.
Nobody took a big dip.
WOW. That feels so much better!
I can imagine that he and his parents can take this as chance.
It can be a turning point for all of them.
I see them much clearer, now.
I see them heading towards ITV.
I see them clear and soothed.
I see them empowered.
I see them straightening it out.
I see them, thinking in a new way.
I see them approaching a new, better, clearer and more empowering way as family.

I see his father in greater strengths than ever, being the strong, clear, good man he is.
I see his mother coming off and becoming clearer and happier than before.
I see her finding strengths.
I see her getting it.
I see her clear.
I see his brother thinking.
I see him empowered, so much more clear.
I see HIM scattered to think really new.
I see him feeling for a solution.
I see him getting something in a very very good way.
I see him lighting up and gathering true strengths.
I see him reaching for- and finding his inner guidance.

I see him soothed.
I see him so much more clear.
I see him turning around.
I see him, matured.
I see him, appreciativ.
I see him, feeling beloved from inside.
I see him feeling his guidance.
I see him, unfolding.
I see him, letting her go in some peace.
I see him giving in in peace.
I see him, maturing on his own, with his guidance.
I see him being so much more grown up.
I see his father, coaching him in such a good way.
I see him standing up against Mom. I see them turning their boat in love and clarity.
I see him, clear.
I see him, matured.
I see him, understanding love on a whole new level.
I see him, feeling the relief and the empowerment.
I see him, feeling his true worth.
I see him, holding to this.

I see her, being so clear now.
I see her, letting this go.
I see her confident for what she really wants!
I see her very much empowered.
I see her radiant in joy and happines.
I see her laughing and radiating her clarity and joy. No bullsh* for her anymre!
I see her, embraced in joy and clarity and alignment.
I see her, being my beloved happy empowered clear sunshine.
I´m so proud about her. I so love her!

I feel respect.
I feel soothed.
I feel ease.
I feel secure.
I feel empowered.
I feel free.
I feel love.
I feel my love, and so good in all of it.
I feel certain.
I feel certain of the outcome.
I feel the love.
I like to feel thi unconditional sooo pwerful love.
I feel us all radiating in who we are- in love.
I feel how we all feel it.
I feel how we all click into place.
We all click into a so good place, and evolve even more.

We grow towards the sun, and wellbeing.
This was a catalysator that changed a lot. Now it´s shifted.
Now, the goodnes is unfolding.

specifically positive
-I want to feel good about this situation and -guy.
- I like this image!
I like joy and trust.
Joy and trust.
Joy and trust.
Joy and trust, and ease.
Joy and trust and ease.
Joy and trust and ease.
Joy and trust and ease!

[paradise-on-earth]

22:22 o´clock

[paradise-on-earth]

"Have fun, have fun, have clarity, have fullness, have eagerness,
have fun, have experience, have fun!"

Most parents are saying,
"Be careful. Don't be stupid. Don't break any rules.
Don't break any laws. Don't upset anybody."
And they walk out the door thinking,
"As soon as I get away from you,
I will be free."

Portland, OR on 8/11/12