30 days of seeing the Vortex-version of people- and my relationships with them

[paradise-on-earth]

30 days of seeing the Vortex-version
of people- and of my relationship with them

Day 2


Specifically negative
-I am feeling wonderful about P.
- I don´t.
I´m ashamed because of that.
I sould do so much better.
I feel still mixed up- and forsaken and betrayed, about a dream.
I hold the grudges even I know better-
I´m sad. The sadnes is so big.
The sadnes poisons me...
and then the wish for revenge kicks in and I´m in shame and go back to disempowerment and shame.
It feels good to have said it...

generally negative
-I am feeling wonderful about P.
- I´m sad and I have reason.
This doesn´t serve me.
I wanna move it.
I want to take the bounce and find the gift in all of this.
It must be big, because this is big...


generally positive + new GRID
-I am feeling wonderful about P.
- I feel the bignes of the gift, the chance.
I like to see it from this side.
Feels better!
I did good already.
I reaped a huge benefit already.
I got so much clarity.
I gained power.
I saw my grid in this.
I like the huge clarity.
I like the freedom I discovered.
I like the power I felt.
I like all of it.
It´s GOOD to always want more.
When I want more, there is more!
It´s a promise.
When I feel yearning, I really yearn for the catching up with me- with what I became because of him.
I like the idea that we helped each other into expansion.

I like to think about it in this way.
I like to think about him with appreciation.
I like to remind his beauty.


specifically positive
-I am feeling wonderful about P.
-I like to think about how special he was.
I liked his eloquence.
I liked his friendlynes.
I liked his humour.
I liked his courting me.
I liked so much how clear he showed his fascination.
I liked how much fun we had.
I liked how he made me fly and feel alive.
I liked the intensity we reached.
I liked how he made me aware of my beauty.
I liked how high we soared.
I like it still.
I see his strenghts.
I see his potential.
I see his wish for greatnes.
I see his love.
I see his brilliance.
I see his power.
I see his alignment.
I see his eagernes.
I see his ease.
I see his connectednes to fascination.
I see his friendlynes.
I see his wish.
I see it.
I like it.
I love it.
It all was true... and still is.
I may stay on the beam.
I may see and live all this, unconditionally.
This feels miraculous.
This feels powerful.
This feels good!
This feels connected in the core.
This feels loving, again!
This feels matured.
This feels friendly.
This feels in love.
And I still want more- and I always will.
I am in peace.
I am in peace.
I want to find more specifics- and I am in peace were I am.
I love you, P. Thanks for the journey we shared.
Be blessed for your new path.
I love you.
I let you go.

[paradise-on-earth]

There are those that say, if you do the uncomfortable thing long enough,
it will become comfortable.

But we are really not encouragers of that.
We are encouragers of coming into alignment, and then taking the action.
We are encouragers always of getting rid of the fear;
we would never want you to keep doing things that you feel fearful about.

And maybe the path of least resistance is just not get on the horse.
Maybe the path of least resistance is to get on a different horse—
but we would never move forward in fear.

--- Abraham

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Specifically negative
-I have a great grid about friendships with men.
- I don´t.
I feel mixed up and I expect problems.
I expect overwhelming men.
I expect shoing away men that are not ultra-strong.
I expect them being repelled by my overweight.
I´m angry that this ruins my confidence.
I expect them to be repelled by me, being happily married.
I expect problems and confusion.
I expect them to not being able to deal with all of it in good ways.
I expect to be abandoned.
I expect men to not be strong.
I expect men to not be true.
I expect men to not be stable in their alignment.
I expect men to not really want me as deep friend
I expect men to not be able to live friendship with me- in a reliable, respectful way, where flirting and fun is possible without shame, without strings atached.
I expect men to not be able to work it out.
I have a LOT "reason" to believe all this.
I´m longtrained in heartbreak and feeling the evidence...
I hate it.

I wanna get out of all this.


generally negative
-I have a great grid about friendships with men
-I have a lot of split energy going on, here!
I don´t wonder we all wheren´t able to buck this currents...
I trained this all my life. It´s all so valid and so understandable- and it still doesn´t serve me.
I want it different.
I wonder why I carried this around so long. Sh*
I want to take the bounce.


generally positive + new GRID
-I have a great grid about friendships with men
- I feel such relief to finally have said it all.
It feels so much freer and easier already.
Thanks Abe, for this process!

I want it different.
I know this turns around.
I feel it already...

I like the relief!
I like the slow rambling.
I like to take my time with this.
It´s so big in so many ways, and I just may take my time and float!
That feels good- it´s big, and I won´t miss it even I let go.
I have all time I need.
The good guys are still there.
No hurry.
I will live great friendships, in time.
I can feel inspired already.

I so like men.
I so like their gifts.
I like their slightly different way of living, of thinking, of approaching life.
I so like their inspiration.
I like their hands-on-approach.
I like their clarity.
I like their straight minds.
I like their humour.
I simply LOVE men!

I am attracted to men.
I love to work with them.
I love to think with them.
I love to challenge them and being challenged.
I love to click with them- regarding everything.
It feels like perfect cocreation.
I love the differences, and I love the mutual attraction.
I love the respect that I draw.
I love the adoration I draw.
I love being inspired into heights of thoughts and alivenes that I´m not drawn by women, into.
I love love love to be with men!

I want friendships that feel deeply respectful.
I want friendships that have a high level of eloquence, intelligence, clarity and spirituality.
I want friendships where both are fascinated by the chances.
I want friendships where the men are deeply committed.
I want them to be solid as rock, even if they are free as the wind.
I want them to be stable in ther commitment to alignment with their source!

I want friendships where both partners are committed to the Vortex.
Where both are easy, playful, loving, strong, deliberate, sturdy, bold, friendly, clever and humourous.
I want friendships that include fun, nice tease and flirt.
I SO LOVE TO PLAY!
I want to share my playfulnes.
I want clarity IN this.
I want the boundarys felt and enjoyed and challenged by both where they need to move,
and lovingly accepted where they are feeling good.
I want freedom of the mind and freedom of the boundarys
I want partners that love to dance on the leading edge of all edges, around the borders- as me.

I want clever, bold, confident, strong, fascinated, committed, eager joyful partners that see me in my wholenes and adore me in my wholenes- as I do with them.
I want partners that are free in mind, while rooted in alignment.
I want clarity, freedom, joy, gentlenes, whit, love, high intelligence and playful attitude.
I want to soar with them to higher and higher successes in wonderful projects- or wonderful exchange.
I want to feel equality in power and perception of power.
I want friendships with men ITV!

I want to feel great and wonderful and adorable and seen and beloved and helpful and secure and joyful with my friends.
I want to feel wonderful with my friends.
I want to soar high with my friends.
I want to rely on my friends.
I want to be fulfilled with my friends.
I want to feel GREAT with them!

specifically positive
-I have a great grid about my friendships with men
- THIS ALL WAS SPECIFICALLY POSITIV!!
I LOVE MY NEW GRID!!!
I LOVE LOVE LOVE MY NEW GRID and it feels as if it would fill in ALREADY
YESSSSS

[paradise-on-earth]

Specifically negative
-I have a stunning relationship with P.
- .

generally negative
-I have a stunning relationship with P.
- Grrr.


generally positive + new GRID
-I have a stunning relationship with P.
- I can have that at least vibrationally.
I can go out of all the negativity!
I can have what I want.
Do I want to be right- or happy?
Vibrationally- we´r THERE anyway, and not keeping up is the only thing that makes me hurt!
I KNOW this.
So I could also catch up!
This feels MUCH better.
I don´t need to know how.
And how he deas with it, and how others deal with that.

Only thing is WHAT I WANT and if I CATCH UP with that.
WOW.
I LIKE to remind myself about that!!!

I can have it all.
I can have his respectful but confident excuse.
I can have his committed strengths.
I can have his new approach to a friendship that´s far beyond what we expected in the past.

We can tell a new story.
We can celebrate our connectednes.
We can find peace.
We can find joy.
We can find stability that will be so much greater this time.
Where is it at, vibrationally?


specifically positive
-I have a stunning relationship with P.
- Vibrationally, we know and love and cocreate deliberatly.
Unconditionally.
Vibrationally, he is a friend since a long time.
Vibrationally, he showed up to bring us to a special point.
Vibrationally,
he knows, and so do I.
Vibrationally, it´s all so easy:
Love, love, love, love, love, love...
Vibrationally it´s fun.
Vibrationally, it´s very special.
And it´s very unique.
And it´s OURS. And we are totally free.
Vibrationally, we share with ALL we love- and that´s very much ALL
Vibrationally, we are completely without boundarys!
Vibrationally, we don´t gve a rip, because it´s ALL love, anyways!

I see I will GET this!
I LOVE this idea of getting this principle of freedom in pure and LIVED unique LOVE.
I love it!

[paradise-on-earth]

Vision



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-well yes of course but a little late m'lady

[paradise-on-earth]

Old friends pass away. New friends appear.
It´s just like the days- and old day passes. A new day arrives.
The important thing is to make it meaningful:
A meaningful friend; or a meaningful day.
Dalai Lama



"I live with her in the beauty of peace and of all delight and sweetness,
I am directed by her counsels, supported by her prayers.
I press forward by her merits, I am upheld by her kindnesses and daily I enjoy conversation with her."
Guibert of Gembloux regarding Hildegard of Bingen


"The recovery of eros is also a recovery of play,
an important dimension of friendship...
The recovery of play is an invitation to friendship.
Playfulness means the devaluation of control.
Play involves the capacity to trust and to surrender to the moment. So also with friendship.

Friendship has no achievement agenda, no task orientation...Of course, friends often do things together.
They embark on common tasks and tackle common agendas.
They stand side by side facing something to be done.
Indeed, some suggest that men have their own distinctive style of relating: it is shoulder-to-shoulder rather than face-to-face.
But must it be an either/or proposition?

Friendship often means letting loose of the task, letting go of the need to prove one's usefulness.
It means valuing the presence of the other just for their own's sake.
It is enough just to be, and to be with. That is playful, and that is gracious.
The recover of eros and its playfulness means the recovery of pleasure.
Friendship both depends and thrives on it."
James Nelson


"To deny the sexual dynamics of friendship,
whether or not romance is involved, is to court disaster.
Sexual desire demands its due,
and while acknowledged sexuality calls our attention to the ways we are drawn to 'otherness'
and ultimately God,
unacknowledged sexuality is famous for exploding under the covers."
Kenda Creasy Dean


"The tragedy is not just that there is so much sexual and emotional infidelity around,
but that, because of this,
there is so little hetereosexual friendship and love around (even within marriage)."
Ronald Rolheiser

[paradise-on-earth]

30 days of seeing the Vortex-version
of people- and of my relationship with them

Day 3

generally positive + new GRID
-DH is a wonderful, highly lined up leadership-personality.
-I so SEE it.
It reveals itself to me, it´s so good to observe it!
and I even want MORE! MORE!!!
I feel his connectednes.
I feel his strengths.
I feel his deep commitment to feeling GOOD and being ITV.
I see it all the time unconditionally.
I love to see it. It´s so SEXY!!
I love HIM.
I love everything about him!
I adore him.
I adore him being all what I really look in for a man:
He is so smart and fast thinking.
He UNDERSTANDS.
He is able to get everything that is important to me.
He is such a wonderful leader- strong and deliberate, clear and gentle.

He is such a LOVER. He loves life, people, nature, energy, creation.
I adore how skilled he is in everything he is interested.
I so love watching and observing him.
I adore his deep connectednes.
I adore his ease.
I adore his humour. He has SUCH wit!!
I adore his body.
I love his wonderful manly figure.
I love how sturdy and strong and handsome he is.
He is a manly hero.
I adore his long hair.
I adore his beautiful hands, and arms, and legs, and shoulders... and everything else
I ADORE MY HUSBAND!

I adore what an incredibly good lover he is.
I adore how deeply intersted, fascinated and passionate he is.

I adore how much he is in me...
I adore his adoration of me.
I adore how strong he is and how reliable to hold me.
I adore getting cought by him.
I adore being courted by him in just the perfect way.
I adore looking at him and having butterflys in my stomach, still after 30 years
I adore us having such chemistry!
I adore us, teasing.
I adore us, flirting.
I adore us laughing till we are tired.
I adore us caressing.
I adore us, FEELING EACH OTHER.
I ADORE our chemistry!

I adore that I completely trust him.
I adore our relationship that grew over the decades in contrast and extreme conditions and ALWAYS was so good.
I ADORE living with him.
I adore sharing my deepest thoughts and wildest dreams, and KNOWING him on my side or catching up soon.

I adore his bodily huge strengths.
I adore his incredible mental strenghts.

I adore that he is so confident. Unshakable.Sexy as hell, and knows it.
I adore that he is not arrogant at all ever.
I adore his alignment.
I adore how much he´s interested in life- in ALL!
I adore how free he thinks.
I adore how good he is in everything.
I adore how easy he takes it.
I adore how truely he KNOWS who he is.
How wonderful connected to his true self he is.
He is glowing KNOWING.
He is radiating ITV-self-confidence. He just KNOWS who he is.
He expresses it in his posture, in his smile, in the glow of his eyes, in each move, in each smile, in his air, in his charisma.

IT IS SO ATTRACTIVE!!!!

I adore his visions.
I adore how he inspires me and makes me feel invincible.
I adore how good I feel with him.
I adore how good we are, together.
I adore that we are better "we" as if we are alone
I adore that our basis is freedom... and our goal is cocreation.
I adore seing him in all my visions on my side, in the most beautiful ways.
I adore working with him.
I adore having one-touch-is-dreamlike-feeling-paradise going into sheer-extasy-heaven-sex with him.
I adore GETTING THERE and BEING THERE with him in all ways imaginable.

I adore making fun together.
I adore dreaming and visualizing together and uplifting each other.
I adore sleeping in one Vortex that surrounds us.
I adore playing with him in nature
I adore contemplating with him any, ANY beauty
I adore learning with him, teaching him, being tought by him.

I ADORE HIM!
I ADORE HIM.
I ADORE US.
I SO LOVE HIM!!!

[ItsAllwaysGoodScorp]

lovely words
lovely pic

So great you know you are blessed!

[paradise-on-earth]

Thank you!

...and thank you, Ana

[paradise-on-earth]

"I´m going to ready myself vibrationally- for the filling in of the grid.""
Denver, June 2012



Friendship often means letting loose of the task, letting go of the need to prove one's usefulness.
It means valuing the presence of the other just for their own's sake.
It is enough just to be, and to be with. That is playful, and that is gracious.
The recover of eros and its playfulness means the recovery of pleasure.
Friendship both depends and thrives on it."
James Nelson

generally positive + new GRID
-I feel wonderful about him.
- Oh yes, I do!
I feel us clicking.
I feel us special.
I feel us soaring high.
I feel us connected.
I feel us extraspecial.
I feel us reaching out for each other and touching.
I feel us sure.
I feel us, committed.
I feel us enjoying the sweetnes together and alone.
I feel us free and selfcontained and soo enjoying each other!

I feel us FEELING us.
I feel us, knowing us.
I feel us knowing our core.
I feel us so stable and sturdy.
I feel us teasing and laughing and uplifted to higher heights each time.
I feel us so special!

I feel us normal.
I feel us friendly and gentle.
I feel us deeply satisfied in the NOW.
I feel us calm.
I feel us happy whenever we meet.
I feel us making miracles together.


specifically positive
-I feel wonderful about him.
- I feel us talking intimatly, completely sure about understanding and being understood.
I feel us exploring together,
dancing around all borders and enjoying the heck out of it.
I feel us laughing.
I feel us aware.
I feel us thrilled by the borders, exploring, challenging, playing with them.
I feel us giving in.

I feel us going back and laughing.
I feel us in a bold or subtle dance.
I feel us, completely following our inner guidance without doubt or regret.
I feel us like theres beautiful music inside us.
I feel us having fascinating projects.
I feel him rising wide above what he was before.
I feel him inspiring me.

I feel us free, together.
I feel us.
I feel such joy.
I feel such awarenes.
I feel such commitment- so naturally, with certainty.
I feel us crossing the border and enjoying it without shame ever.
I feel us departing without sorrow.
I feel us connected anyway.
I feel us.
It´s so clear.
It´s innocent and age-old.
It is.
It is us.
It is US.

It´s including our whole being and all who we love.
We are the other one.
Not departed ever.
One.
Joyfully playing in physical form, in all ways, happily grinning...