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  1. #501
    gosh, i've had such an awesome time

    i let go of everything and got back to the me i was before and a few incredible miracles happened


    ~my lover came back to me~


    all i did was just appreciate him, with such softness and real love
    i opened my heart and just let myself love him
    and i made sure that my feelings were of love, and were on the happy side of him - not on the longing or yearning side
    and then i just followed my heart
    i messaged him when i felt inspired
    and i got replies
    i got them fast as well

    as much as i desire him physically, it is the love in my heart that pulls him to me and me to him
    it is the milking of our night together that i celebrate
    i am no more concerned about my future any more, ever, not even of tomorrow
    i am only concerned with having a loving fun happy time this minute, today, now

    i did nothing to 'bring him back' because as much as i adored and desired him, i was wanting a man who wanted me totally all by himself - not one i had to coax
    so i did the only thing i knew i could do easily - i relived our moments together and just enjoyed them as i replayed them over and over in my mind

    so i am just being the me i was before
    i am happy and i am centered
    and now that i have had the step 1s with him i am in a different place and things have taken on a different feeling and understanding and ease
    i feel so much better
    i would love to enjoy him now for a little bit of nows, and see how that goes
    and i have a plan that if i feel the momentum racing way beyond my control then this time i will step back for a few days and do nothing until i find my alignment and ease
    luckily i've had some practise in this new way with some other boys giving me a little contrast, so that has been good
    i am confident that any momentum from him is now manageable for me and that it will just be ease with him
    i look forward to him melting my heart
    i look forward to him taking my breath away
    i look forward to him making my heart miss a beat


    he came back to me in full force
    i was rather shocked infact
    and i have been thrilled
    and i was given way way way more than i expected, so i shall just chillax and keep flowing the love to him that i had been doing before as it felt so so good, and the good about him is so much
    i go with my feelings and the intense draw i have for him is undeniable




    not only that incredible manifestation happened but a week ago as i was driving thru the city on my way home, very happy, very pleased, very relaxed, after an incredible vortexual time at my beautiful beautiful work - i noticed a suv infront of the car infront of me -

    and O M G !!!

    it happened to be ~my no1 driftwood~ in his work truck!



    oh my!!! this is the honey that really is my true dream man, and my touchstone for all blissful love feelings
    well, i was thrilled and excited
    i got behind him for 10minutes as we drove thru the busy streets and it was just so nice
    he had a girl with him, obviously his love, because he kept glancing at her full on and leaning over to her
    it was beautiful to see his interest and attentiveness with his lady
    that is what i want my man to be like with me!
    that interested, that attentive, that adoring
    as i neared my turn off i knew he would be heading along a different road and the traffic lights up ahead turned red! haha, ofcourse they did, so i safely pulled up alongside him, gave him a beep and smiled at him
    his beautiful lady smiled at me - she must be a naturally nice person to smile at a stranger, and ofcourse he was leaning over and looked right into my eyes! i waved and smiled at him, it was thrilling to see him again and huge sparks of desire shot thru my body, just the sight of him is enough to take my breath away, he is truly that handsome and stunning a man!
    then i drove on as the light turned green and thanked the Universe for that amazing blessing
    i'm not counting but it has been over a year and half since i last saw him


    i've had the most handsome boys giving me direct attention
    it has been beautiful and heart melting
    i share my heart with these boys and i know they can feel the love that flows easily from me to them
    i ask of nothing in return except a smile and some direct eye contact and i get it every time

    life has been so very good
    this morning i basked in the sun for a couple of hours, it was so hot and comforting
    i am so happy to just love so purely and intensely again




    Dream your dream for the dream’s sake,
    and never mind about reality or probabilities.

    That’s what’s tripping you up,
    because in the dream you can make it pure,
    and when you make it pure in your dreams the universe will answer it.

    Abe


    thank you to paradise-on-earth for the stolen pics hehe




    love
    love my blessings
    love my life
    love me
    love the stars
    love my beautiful men in my life
    love the love they feel for me, and it is ALOT

    in love with love
    with loving
    with ease
    with being happy
    in love with being happy
    and breathing and drinking water and smiling and laughing and hugging and holding and kissing
    in love with life

    thank you blessed stars for my life here on this amazing incredible planet
    i am truly blessed and adored and loved

    ~the biggest of love from my heart~
    xxxxxxx

  2. #502
    it's been a while and i have been very busy being away doing my absolute favourite thing in my beautiful profession
    i have been having the time of my life and loved every single second
    it's been so physically tiring but rewarding

    in the meantime, as i replied to a message from one of the precious hearts on here, my lover came and left - again -
    haha
    infact he did not leave - i was the one to leave
    yet again i spat the dummy! lol
    i am still not over my knee jerk reactions, even though i had decided to myself that i would give myself a 4 day reaction period
    i have nearly kept the 4 days, but sometimes i react in less time and that is where the lack of love comes in, as 4 days is time enough for me to chill and just keep the love going no matter what

    still, he is not out of my life
    he slips in often, so i am going to write less about the reality and more about what i love about him
    only for the pure reason of feeling good
    i don't need anything to happen with him
    i am just going to take it one day at a time
    i have grown alot with him, in ways i never knew i would
    he has expanded my boundaries but most of all, he excites and thrills me

    sexually he is everything i have been looking for, a perfect 10, and the draw to him is irrisistible

    and i think this is the thing that is keeping us coming back to eachother, for me and him - our chemistry is spot on

    in the meantime, i have a new hot sexy ass man pursuing me
    he's being flirty and fun and we are enjoying our new acquaintance
    there's more under the surface and he is giving me lots of direct attention and i do appreciate the fun coming from him
    it's amazing, i never speak about my exact desires out loud, not even to myself, but the Universe just keeps delivering the exact thing to me in ways that are thrilling!
    this new one comes from a special place, and he doesn't know the half of it yet, but i do
    there will be alot of fun between us in the future i know that and i can easily prepave it

    it's easy for me to attract beautiful handsome sexy hot boys!
    he said to me that there's just something about me
    lol, he couldn't explain it haha, because he doesn't know the word for alignment and in her vortex, haha
    but yes, he is just drawn to me like my lover

    no need for me to do anything except appreciate and love and be thankful and happy every day


    the other day my miracle was confirmed for sure
    ~***my miracle occured***~
    this is the thing that had been a sure thing a couple of months ago, well the other day it was finalised and i am now truly living my dream in my profession
    out of all of my dreams this is the thing that i am so in love with
    i am just so happy
    i cried tears of happiness when i heard
    and i am humble enough to always be appreciative for where i started as well
    and i will always be humble enough to appreciate where i am and where i am going
    this is just love on every level
    this is a fast flowing stream of intense pure deep love
    this is the very essence of me, for as long as i can remember, from when i was small, this has been my dream and now it is true!


    i am so happy to just be in love
    really had a brilliant time when i was away
    love just loving and being in love
    love my lover, yeah he takes my breath away
    and my dream - yeah, it is very exciting!
    just happy being in love
    in love with life
    in love with me
    in love with my dreams
    in love with love

    thank you xxxxx

  3. #503
    ~***love love love * LOVE * love love love***~

    love my life

    love love love love love

    love my man

    love him
    love that boy with all my heart
    love love love love love




    When you focus upon the beauty of something ONLY,
    you activate the beauty of it within YOU,
    so that it and you are one vibration.

    Abraham-Hicks, Asheville, NC, 4.30.06

    (thank you earth angel paradise-on-earth)


    so in love

    with all my life
    so in love living on this amazing planet!!!
    what an exciting beautiful spectacular intense place to live on
    oh my god that boy that i just love with all my heart
    yesterday i was walking on the highest cloud of love feeling him all over me ~in me~ aha and with me
    oh my god i am SO IN LOVE with him
    i love him so so so so so so much
    he just does not know how he has impacted on me but it all all all all good
    and i love him totally

    i am so in love with life
    i have come here to do what i am doing now
    this is it!
    the ultimate love of my heart
    i am living my dream and i am so incredibly happy
    i have tears of intense happiness flowing from my heart
    i have the boy that i desired in my heart
    he is my breathing space, he is my love
    and i am so loving loving him

    thank you beautiful love Universe stars angels gods
    for being here with me
    guiding me
    loving me
    adoring me
    hehe



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    yesssss.... this sounds powerful and wild and beautiful
    I am feeling this good vibes of being in love
    this is the wave of miracles and magic


    love you so much



    love Venus

  5. #505
    thank you Venus
    often i go to your thread to fly and to enjoy your love there
    especially your love for rainbowlover


    i am so so so incredibly happy and so in love
    so in love with my life
    oh yes


    oh yes!
    i am truly living my dream
    it is breathtaking and incredible beyond words
    yesterday i was flying so high that i had to hold back the tears of love and appreciation
    (as i was in company lol)
    but as i watched the unfolding of what i was there for, i felt myself being swept rapidly up into a place where love abounds endlessly
    always and forever i will replay this scene in my mind
    to relive those deep incredible feelings
    it was early in the morning and i was so excited to be there
    and then i saw them, they all came slowly towards me, the boys
    oh my!
    my heart just sang
    i felt excited, very excited
    i felt really happy
    i felt the deepest of love
    i felt proud
    i felt the deepest of admiration
    i felt like i was home

    i am living in a different world now
    fully

    thoughts of my lover come every now and again
    yes i still do so desire him
    on uneven terms though
    and i know that he is probably not the one to satisfy them
    well, not the way we communicate, as he just can't grasp the finesse of it and neither can i
    i tried to work on it in my own abe way, and i'm still a little too human to do it lol
    and, well, oh well
    but in person i reckon we would be interesting
    my fire and his explosiveness would combine interestingly i know for sure
    and i feel that one day -it is my wish infact-
    that we may have some time together in a work situation
    where he will get to appreciate me
    and his desire will grow
    because i know that our attraction is the highest ever! we are instantly drawn to each other there is no denying that
    we are both so fiery
    i know that he will be the perfect husband for me, for my needs, haha, and actually yes for his needs too
    but i am giving him a little rest as i am having way way way so much fun at the moment elsewhere


    i have been having the most incredible time
    flying so high
    being so very tired as well
    and just living my dream being so happy

    and i was reunited with a boy that i'd not seen for a while
    for nearly 2years
    me and him and such good mates
    the first time we met a couple years ago, we just clicked!
    i love him to pieces
    and he knows it too
    i will always love and adore and admire and appreciate him
    and when i saw him the other night i snuk up on him then as he turned to me i held my arms open and just laughed and squeeled and laughed to be seeing him again
    he was very surprised and very delighted to see me ha ha ha
    and yes he grabbed me and we hugged and hugged and hugged
    it was beautiful
    was totally awesome!
    loved it so much! love him so much
    i gave him a tiny piece of abe advice to help him with his dream, for i know what's in his heart
    i already see him as the person he so wants to be
    he is just perfect in every way
    oh my, if his dream comes true

    interestingly i dreamt about a dream coming true for another boy whom i don't know personally
    but he has been going thru some rough contrast these past few years
    and i imagined him free and happy reunited with his family
    i imagined seeing him happy, and just being relaxed and at ease
    many many people wanted this to happen but they were taking the action journey of protesting and fighting against
    and so in my mind, i sat there and just imagined him happy and relaxed and at ease and free again
    and a few months later it happened
    the policy changed and he is now home now
    and i thought to myself aaah that's so nice -i wonder if i did it? haha

    oh funny thing too
    every week now i get to play with the gate boy!

    ha ha ha true story!
    yeah i do an activity with him and others, but yes he runs it and i join in every week
    so i get time to glance over at him every now and again and enjoy his handsome dark features
    and last week he was beside me all the time throughout it haha
    he is such an alpha male as well
    just the kinda boy i love

    life is good
    i am just so happy
    i am doing what i came here to do


    and i have been enjoying the attentions of my new admirer as well
    he is constantly loving to me
    it's interesting as well
    he doesn't know me at all
    but yeah he can't keep away from me
    i do fancy him too
    he is just the type of alpha male boy that excites me!
    he gives me what i want at unexpected times hehe and that thrills me to pieces
    and he is always tender and gentle and kind and loving to me



    such a happy beautiful life i live
    surrounded by things that make my heart sing
    surrounded by love
    surrounded by boys that i love to pieces
    i love them all so very very very much
    i love them to pieces
    haha
    i don't tell this ofcourse hahaha
    they will think i am mad
    um, some already know hehe
    but yes i am surrounded with the nicest of boys
    they are absolute true gentlemen to me always
    it is such an honour and such a pleasure and such a privilege to be amongst them

    i am floating on clouds of love
    my heart is open and loving
    i am tender and gentle
    and kind and soft
    and beautiful and warm
    i am a loving star of warmth
    i will give my all for these boys
    i have found where i belong
    and inside my heart is a love so pure and so big and so endless that it lifts me up
    up high into the stars amongst the galaxies
    i chose earth to play on
    and i am here having fun
    happy to be here
    incredibly
    thank you
    xxxxxxx
    Last edited by Wild and Beautiful; 04-03-2017 at 03:10 PM. Reason: add some more stuff

  6. #506
    really appreciate my life here on earth
    love love love the boys in my life
    beautiful
    fun adoring
    kind
    gentle
    tender
    caring
    honest
    warm happy

    just nice to be happy
    and content
    just nice to be so in love
    happy
    feeling so full of love
    surrounded by the most beautiful men
    strong
    warm
    loving
    so very adoring
    kind
    tender hearted
    gentle
    beautiful

    such an honour to be by them
    such an honour to have these beasts in my life
    just love loving them
    just love adoring them
    boys really do make my heart beat faster
    and the strongest most fun ones come out to play with me aha

    love being wild!
    love being beautiful!
    love being strong
    love being fast
    love being mesmerizing
    love being alluring
    love being irrisistable
    love being captivating
    love shining and sparkling
    love loving
    love being all heart

    blessed to be here doing the job i love with all my heart
    married to my job
    happy
    so very very very very very very happy
    and in love
    and surrounded by boys who love me
    cuz i LOVES them all



  7. #507
    having lots of fun in my life every day
    every day i am just so happy and appreciative of what i am living
    this is just incredible
    and i feel so easy about things
    if they come they come, if not no big deal
    and sometimes when i feel the need to have something - i just do my 9thing game with it so that i can get that feeling place of already having it
    sometimes it comes to me, other times i see lots of driftwood of it and that's okay too because i'm happy just finding the feeling place of it

    i've been just letting things be with my lover

    he comes into my mind every now and again
    i'm not sure why i can't just 'get over him' like i usually can with others
    i think he must've touched something in me haha

    ~when i think of him i melt
    i melt a little in my heart
    he feels like home to me
    he feels warm and beautiful and all heart
    he feels soft and gentle and tender and kind and loving
    he feels like an open heart
    an open heart of love
    he feels like a nice place to go to, to just spend some time~

    in the meantime i have been playing the 'wouldn't it be nice' game of having a perfect for me lover, of having a mate just for me
    it's a nice place to go to to find relief
    i've come to the acceptance that i may never have a mate
    and i suppose that's going to have to be okay
    if in this life i have things that are just a little bit too much for me to deal with on the conscious level and it means that all i can do is just find relief in my dreams, then i suppose that is okay
    it's not ideal haha
    but it is what it is and i have struggled a bit with this over the last few years
    and i manifested that lover above who said everything to me that i wanted to hear from a man
    he just really was perfect for me in many many ways
    but the contrast was incredible! lol and i couldn't handle it
    and i walked away and walked back to him many times
    i think he gave up on me not long after the beginning lol
    and i couldn't see it
    but anyway, i have put myself thru the wringer, i have tried my very best to maintain and keep my alignment and to just come to terms with what i have experienced
    and i suppose that is just going to have to be good enough for me
    everything else, every other single thing in my life is way more than perfect - maybe not perfect in other people's eyes, and by no means ideal, but i am able to live my life in this way and still be happy with these conditions around me - my incomplete home that needs some diy and decorating lol, and i am still dreaming my dreams about certain things because the thought of having the thing is just pleasurable
    but yes, my life is perfect in so many ways
    i can just cry with happiness about what i am living because i am living my dream, i have my job and it is the world to me and every day i breathe and live it and i am so incredibly appreciative to have it, be it and do it
    so this mate thing, this man in my bed thing, well i suppose i just have to be happy with my dreams -and at the moment i am-
    i feel i have done all i can, and finding relief is all i can do on this subject haha
    ofcourse i could get many -in my bed- any time, but i'm wanting the one, or two, who want to so be in my bed that i want to be there
    and until that happens, if it ever does, i am just finding relief and acceptance as things are
    i know the abrahamster way
    and it's a daily process of just being aware and thankful and mindful and constantly living in these beautiful seconds of love on this planet

    really i am so blessed
    so blessed to be here on earth
    in this amazing paradise
    such a big big big open sky
    with clouds
    and the sun!
    oh my!
    how do i love the sun?
    shining on me, as i bask in it's love and rays
    and just bask bask bask bask bask
    so looooooooove basking
    just beautiful

    really do appreciate what i have
    really so so so absolutely love the boys in my life
    appreciate the fun we have and how much i just love and adore and admire and appreciate them all in my life

    happy
    really happy
    and thankful
    and so happy to just be able to fall into my 9thing game of just loving what i love because i love it


  8. #508
    it's so beautiful just to listen to abe on youtube
    i hear exactly what i'm needing to hear when i choose a clip
    i listened to one tonight, it was just so perfect and gave me even more clarity about maintaining my alignment when being besotted with another beast lol
    oh my
    yeah i am besotted with my lover
    the thing i so love about the whole affair is when we were together, so intimate
    it just felt so incredibly perfect

    oh my
    the next boy to make me feel like that will be heaven!
    i have one who is coming to visit, to take the place of my lover
    he is adamant about taking his spot
    i love the fire in this one
    i love love love love love a confidant boy
    one who never takes no for an answer and just continues on

    my admirer from the past few weeks was nice to have for some attention but i'm looking for something different than him
    even though i do so adore him
    but i'm looking for someone only into me totally and i prefer to give my time to those who choose me only above all others
    haha
    it's so much easier to make my life easy for me by choosing the easiest mates to play with
    i like to keep things easy

    i had my contrast with that beautiful man
    the one who still has my heart
    haha oh gosh, but i have a big heart
    and one day it will be shared with another delicious beast
    but at the moment it is still residing a little with him
    i'm still loving everything in my life though
    so so so so so in love with life

    i am so blessed to have such beautiful handsome boys pursue me
    ones who excite me!
    and who come to me easily
    on my terms
    i like it this way

    had a boy follow me on one of my sm the other day who looked so like my no1 driftwood
    wow!!
    i was so taken back
    felt like having this from him aha-

    and today i passed a car with his name on the license plate
    just so nice to keep seeing these references to him all the time

    he is the only boy in my life so far who has shone the light of source on me in such a powerful way!
    and i love him for that
    love that i let that love into my life

    just so thrilling and comforting when i remember it

    i am enjoying myself
    i have found my old abrahamster self back
    it feels so good!
    and i am okay with what has happened

    i suddenly realised that i had stopped 'not thinking' and has started to 'think'
    haha and that's part of losing my alignment was that i had started to think in an overactive brain again
    tut tut!
    the key for me is to think less, appreciate more, and live in those acute seconds
    i love living in the seconds, when i go right into myself and say hey! look around and just stop for a second and just take it all in - like a camera zooming in on me, then focusing on exactly what is happening that very second and being so super aware of it
    i love that so much!
    i've done that alot lately and it just feels so right, so centered, so perfect

    just so happy to keep finding and maintaining my alignment
    just so happy to keep practising these beautiful vibrations and keeping myself in check
    from relief to happiness
    to absolute unconditional love

    it's been such an incredible time since i met that lover and oh boy, how i have grown! and how my vortex has expanded way more than i ever knew possible
    what i thought i was ready for, was nothing near like what i really am bound for
    hopefully i am making my way there
    infact i know i am making my way there
    sure footed haha
    and if i trip then that's okay too
    i just get up and smile and continue on

    so in love
    saw so many handsome hot hot boys today - and the noticed me too!
    they just seem to light up as i come by
    drove by two who ran into the road infront of me as i was about to go round a corner
    they saw me, stepped into the road, well one did - the hot hot one, and then he changed his mind and stepped back the duh! he stepped in again as i came nearer
    oh my! what a brave dumb one that is, and as i drove by he caught my glance and kept his eyes locked on mine
    he was very handsome! wow!! just the type of hot hot handsome that makes my heart race

    it's been a good good time
    lots of boys coming into my life
    exciting me
    and being excited by me
    and yes, wanting to come visit me! to come play, to come see me

    really happy
    and excited

    thank you
    thank you so much beautiful stars
    thank you xxxxxxxxx

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    thank you Venus
    often i go to your thread to fly and to enjoy your love there
    especially your love for rainbowlover


    My wonderful Wild and Beautiful...
    I love to hear about your adventurous path
    allways going downstrem like in a water canu on the
    wild waters... the rocks and the stream of passion

    someone told that when there are this rocks
    the water is streaming wild but the lessons we learn faster
    cause everything is streaming fast wow...wow... wow

    what exciting times we are living

  10. #510
    Quote Originally Posted by Venus View Post

    My wonderful Wild and Beautiful...
    I love to hear about your adventurous path
    allways going downstrem like in a water canu on the
    wild waters... the rocks and the stream of passion

    someone told that when there are this rocks
    the water is streaming wild but the lessons we learn faster
    cause everything is streaming fast wow...wow... wow

    what exciting times we are living
    thank you beautiful Venus
    i love when you share you warmth and love with me
    and your analogy about the rocks and wild waters lol

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