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  1. #511
    i am so blessed to be living my dream life
    ive been super busy and so happy just doing what i love most surrounded by the most beautiful tender gentle strong strong hearts
    ive been thrilled to pieces and showering love everywhere i go
    ive been surrounded by happiness and laughter and love and sunshine and warmth that's it's just incredible

    so happy
    so very very happy

    it's time for me to pull my socks up and take care of my focus in other areas of my life
    i can do a better job of focusing in some areas and it's time for me to tidy up my vibration in them

    i love to take the path of least resistance when i do this vibrational work
    i am such a dreamer that i love to just dream my way to my perfect vision of what i want
    of what i want in my life
    the stream has been so very fast flowing in my life in this last year, particularly in the boy ~ heart area and it's time for me to become a way better focuser so that i can ~ feel ~ better every day

    feeling good is the most important thing to me
    i so love feeling good!
    i love the feeling of just happy, just feeling good, just feeling satisfied, feeling satisfaction, feeling that feeling of goodness
    i love when i am feeling the fullness of just being satisfied with things
    when i look around me and i just feel the love flowing from me, out to all the things around me
    i love the tiny miracles the Universe showers on me
    those so subtle things that i instantly recognize and squeal with delight inside when i see them
    i love the feeling of being adored
    i love that when i look for the path of least resistance - it just lights up in front of me, and i just have to sit still for a few seconds and take a deep breath and just calm, calmly flow the love
    and all is well

    i love just finding the perfect thing for me when i need it, the right little nudge in the right direction - the direction of happiness and the direction of ease and the direction of love

    nothing feels better than flowing love!
    flowing love is like a stream of warm full full stars emanating from me, outwards to all that i see in my path
    the sparkles and the shining warmth of happiness and love in that sparkly stream of openness just makes me feel so relaxed and at ease

    found a thread on here and it had the perfect answer for me (ofcourse lol!)
    about asking questions - to feel better

    so i started to ask questions
    and yes i feel better

    i know the Universe will answer all of my questions
    and in asking questions i find myself answering them, in my thoughts, in the way that i want them to be
    i find the feelings of what i am wanting to feel when i see my answer in my mind's eye
    no matter what the Universe brings i know that when i feel happy and satisfied and at ease then i will be receiving that sometime soon, but in the meantime just having that feeling of ease and relaxing and warmth and being surrounded in a cloak of love is more than enough to make me feel so much better

    just now for me, it's all about relief
    and about ease

    ~ i take the easy path
    i take the path of love
    i take the path of fun
    i take the path of ease
    i take the path of least resistance
    i take the path of smoothness and love and clarity and warmth and tenderness and gentleness
    i take the path of adoration and appreciation
    of love
    and happiness
    and laughter
    yes, i take the path of happiness and laughter
    i take the path of kindness and care
    i take the path of warmth and heart
    i take the path of love

    always about going down stream in an easy easy easy easy easy easy way

    happy to just glide surrounded in a cloak of love and warmth and happiness

    happy to just love
    and love and love and love and love and love
    happy to just love

    thank you

  2. #512
    been doing some rampages of appreciation on my lover
    every time i relive our moments together i melt
    every time i relive the things he said to me, those things that made my heart miss a beat, i melt
    i just write things about him that i love
    i love the way he looks, the way he is
    i love the small things about him
    and i love the things he did for me
    i've been filling a few pages of him in my journal

    i've also been writing pages of appreciation for all the beautiful boys in my life
    i am so blessed to be surrounded by angels every day
    it's such a blessing to be around kind hearts and such love
    i see things that please me everywhere i go, i am always in the presence of those whom i appreciate

    but most of all
    most of all i just love thinking and remembering and dreaming about my lover
    i've had some other incredibly hot hot handsome boys come into my life in the meantime
    they have been playful and fun and very exciting!
    i have been thrilled and excited and continually delighted by them

    i've been reading threads on here that have inspired me - inspired me to write rampages of appreciations on the boys in my life, past and present
    and to ask lots of questions to the Universe
    i ask questions that excite me, and i phrase them so that the answer will be pleasing and thrilling

    i read thru a few pages of my thread as well
    it's so uplifting to be reminded about all the fun stuff and goodness in my life
    i laughed as i remembered what i was reading about, reliving those moments haha
    it was beautiful to take this trip down my happy memory lane

    this is the one who sets my heart on fire

    my lover
    his desire for me is so strong
    just imagine if he lets me in!
    just imagine if he comes for me, like he did in the beginning, all those months ago with such assuredness of his desire for me
    and sweeps me off my feet again
    just imagine if he has caught up with his expansion this time
    and we are a vibrational match
    just imagine if he tells me again that he is falling for me
    because i know he means it
    and i trust him
    just imagine if he came for me, here, like he said he will
    and i open my door and there he is, so happy to see me
    and he picks me up in his arms and lifts me up to him and kisses me
    kisses me for a long long long long time
    because we are good at kissing him and i
    we are so good at kissing and so good at intimacy
    he wraps me in his arms and kisses me for a long long time before he puts me down

    he requires that i love him
    and yes, i can do that
    i am up to speed with that
    because i know that he easily picks up his end of the bargain
    and that i am his only girl
    and his focus is on me
    i am his home and his warmth
    i am his comfort and his homecoming and his happiness and his love
    i am his breath of deep deep air as he melts into me

    still so in love with this one
    what else can i do but appreciate being in love with him
    so aware of not pining for him, like hands in the clay has said to me, and always looking at the positive aspects of him
    and making sure that my vibration is in a good feeling place
    when i write about him it's a happy feeling to me, it's a feeling of beauty and breathlessness and love and melting into his arms
    these feelings are uplifting to me
    my vibration feels positive
    (i know the feeling of yearning and angst well, so i know when i am writing where i am coming from)
    so no matter my words, as long as i am feeling that feeling place as i write then all is well and all is good

    i am so in love with loving him
    and loving the other boys in my life
    they are so easy to love
    really, my heart just blossoms like a million flowers on a fruit tree
    it opens up like the sun as the clouds part
    and it shines strongly and brightly and deeply and purely all over them

    i have learnt so much in my journey
    my life started really when i discovered abe
    my life started to be lived in such a full and beautiful way
    i am so in love with flying high in my vortex and being so doped up on love

    so doped up on love

    totally being in love and loving and flowing love is the most incredible feeling of all - so orgasmic
    it's utter heaven
    and here i am
    flowing that love
    all over my lover
    how i so do love him
    he took me higher for sure
    and flowing that love over all those other incredible incredible incredible boys in my life
    oh oh my how i so love them all
    these are the things that make my heart beat fast
    and take my breath away
    and make me fly

    my purpose of life is to love ~ my true purpose is to keep my heart open
    no matter what is going on ~ I keep my heart open
    I am dust of stars
    I am the fire of the Universe...
    I am the river of infinity
    I am Source

    love when i was in his arms
    flying ever so high
    flying ever so high
    truly it was heaven
    it was home
    home to me

    Dream your dream for the dream’s sake,
    and never mind about reality or probabilities.

    That’s what’s tripping you up,
    because in the dream you can make it pure,
    and when you make it pure in your dreams the universe will answer it.


    i release all resistance to love and allow them to come easily into my life

    thank you xxxxx

  3. #513
    happy to just love
    happy to just love and adore and dream and appreciate and love and adore
    happy to love and dream
    happy to dream and dream and love and love my dream
    happy to love
    just love
    love and love and love and love

    i have been busy doing pages and pages of rampages of appreciation for my lover
    and oh my god, i have found myself just so happy
    happy and flying high
    flying high in my vortex
    feeling so in love with him
    ~or who ever he is~
    just loving him, his inner being, the essence of him
    oh god, he is just such a dream
    i am so in love with loving him
    it feels incredibly divine!

    just writing pages of appreciations for my lover has made me feel so incredibly wonderful and happy and relaxed and appreciative and unconditionally loving
    towards him
    towards everything
    towards being in lover

    i know that it's okay for me to be in love
    i know that everything will be fine for me
    i know that my man will make me handle it smoothly and easily and i will keep my alignment
    he will be a perfect match for me
    happy easy loving kind gentle caring adoring appreciative gentle tender warm hearted and so beautiful
    beautiful inside and out

    all will be well
    it's safe to just love and adore and love

    how much do i love my man
    being in his arms makes me just melt
    melt so much
    just remembering him holding me in his arms makes me absolutely melt
    this is what i love so much
    this makes my heart melt totally
    i am so in love with him
    no matter what

    no matter what it is okay to love him
    no matter what i can give him my whole heart
    no matter what i am in love loving him
    what is perfect? perfect for me?
    being happy being in love is perfect for me
    being happy just being happy is perfect
    loving him is perfect

    been spending alot of time feeling him with me
    feeling him with me
    closing my eyes and feeeeeling him ~with~ me
    wrapped up in his arms
    his heat warming my body
    his heart beating on me
    his breath on me

    every second spent loving him
    every second spent loving his presence is a gift
    a gift to cherish
    such an honour to love him
    such a privilege to love him
    to be here on earth amongst these incredible beasts
    lol, these -boys haha
    such delicious beasts

    and to love!
    oh my god!
    the feeling of loving is really so indescribable haha, what a word!
    but true!
    that feeling of loving
    loving so deeply, so purely, so fully
    so totally
    is just amazing
    and to flow my love onto him, onto my lover
    is THE best feeling ever!
    so in love with him

    finally after all these months i have just come to this place of just loving him totally with ALL my heart
    giving in totally to just loving him completely
    i give in
    i give in to his pull
    i give in to the hold he has on me
    i give in to him totally
    i give in completely
    and let love just ~ just ~ flow

    i let love flow
    from my heart to his

    i don't know the future but i know my now - and now - now i love him totally completely and absolutely

    i love him
    my man
    my man

    We have never seen someone adore someone
    that the one they were adoring
    didn't adore them back.


    ~ the most beautiful sentiments ever ~

    If nothing is more important to you than that you feel good,
    you can form a fantasy about someone who is in your life

    and they will begin to modify to meet your fantasy,
    because Law of Attraction
    is a very powerful thing.


    love love love

    love totally
    love absolutely
    love fully
    love completely
    love eternally

    and i choose to love him
    this beast
    this gorgeous imperfect being
    this man who has turned my head and my heart
    so in love with him
    such a beautiful man
    and such a privilege to be able to use him as my focus to love myself into absolute bliss

    blissful loving you mr handsome as f*@k essence boy
    blissful to just love
    love and adore you

    so in love

    thank you
    thank you
    thank you stars for bringing me here to this magnificent planet
    to play and enjoy all these tasty magnificent beasts
    loved up

    Dream your dream for the dream’s sake,
    and never mind about reality or probabilities.

    That’s what’s tripping you up,
    because in the dream you can make it pure,
    and when you make it pure in your dreams the universe will answer it.


    so doped up on love

  4. #514
    it's finally time to move on

    i wrote him a final text and sent it

    i feel so much relief

    i said my parting thoughts. that's the last of the action journey from me with this one
    my heart still loves him
    i am still in love with him
    with the best version of him, with his inner being
    he felt like home to me
    everything about him felt like home to me
    but my brain has been ordered to switch off

    and i reminded myself what i used to do
    to get over all this boy nonsense
    because for the last 10months i have been less than a deliberate ceator in my love life
    and it's time to get a grip
    and sort my life out

    i thanked him for the lessons he had brought my way
    i suppose i asked for it all. haha i know i did ask for it
    i did not realise that i would have ever been on such a rollercoaster with all this, especially after all my years of deliberate creation and being such an experienced aber
    but there i go, words don't teach - life experience does
    and what i've learnt has been a eye opener for me

    i am ready to look forward to my next segment

    i have my dreams
    yes they are still alive and burning brightly inside me
    for some reason my little soul does not want to quash all my hopes and dreams after this episode

    i see that as a good sign
    and i will continue to keep my focus on my well being and my happiness and the most simplest of things in life
    that kept me on the happy path before
    and it's what i am now doing now

    i can breathe again

    i have so many blessings
    and as abe says, instead of focusing on the 1 good thing in your life and using that as your guide, i was focusing on the 1 thing that went wrong amongst my 9 super excellent blessings and i let that thing bring me down on a daily basis

    but it's back to being the happy abrahamster me
    the crazy i dont care less what ya all think me
    yep its back to my life of happy vortex induced bliss

    time i got back up on those clouds

    i know exactly what to do
    it's as simple as looking for things to appreciate
    the small things
    and being thankful for them
    very thankful from the bottom of my beating heart
    true appreciation for what's around me in my life now
    the every day, those breaths of fresh air and sips of clear pure water

    time to make my way up again

    to the clouds

    and just spent some time flying

    amongst the kites

    high up there

    yeah, what can i say?
    im kinda a warrior
    is me

    and i never know
    i may just fly past one of these whilst im up there

    i will always believe in love
    because that is who i am
    i am love
    all love

    ~thank you~
    Last edited by Wild and Beautiful; 05-29-2017 at 06:21 AM. Reason: clarify my blabbing on

  5. #515

    and ofcourse i would not be the aligned happy person i have become

    if it were not for David and my tiny spot on this forum

    this is what has kept me sane
    (my kinda sane. which is half insanity anyway :/ )
    writing my journey here, practising

    learning to just love
    and keep loving!!!

    thank you David

    i so appreciate being able to journal here
    this is my ultimate relief
    and it makes me smile to read my notes here
    putting images with words, in a place i can easily access
    24hours a day
    on earth
    amongst beautiful hearts who share love with me here
    i am truly appreciative

    thank you xxxxx

    Last edited by Wild and Beautiful; 05-29-2017 at 09:06 AM. Reason: put the heart on top

  6. #516
    just nice to be relaxing and taking things easy

    last week i had 2 days together where i was completely back to the me i was before
    before that boy came into my life
    it felt so good to just be me again
    i felt normal
    i felt in control
    i felt happy
    i felt powerful
    i felt beautiful and sexy and gorgeous
    i felt happy, really really happy

    i still have moments when i wish for him again
    but they are fleeting
    and i know too much to let him really bother me

    i had lost my connection to myself
    that was what was so off about him and my fixation on wanting his attention
    he refused to give me any attention and my ego was feeling it
    but if i take my ego out of it, then i can see that he is just looking after himself
    as i should be of me

    so it's not wrong of him
    nor right either
    he is just following his connection to source a little bit better than me
    it's just a lack of focus i had going on
    and looking to him to try and make me feel good

    and now i can see that so clearly
    now i can just chill out and take it easy
    and enjoy life
    and appreciate what i have

    it's nice to be free of him

    funny how something so wrong felt so right
    but it was when he shone the light of source on me that i felt that beautiful love
    it was when i felt adored and desired and wanted and treasured
    but he was very hard work
    he soon wore me out
    he was contrast that was way out of my comfort zone
    so happy that i've rid of him
    and rid of wanting his attentions
    his fleeting variable attentions

    better to just chill
    and appreciate all my many many blessings
    and just breathe

    it's nice to keep my focus on me
    it's nice to just relax

    the right one for me will be easy to handle
    he will be a pleasure to be around
    he will make me smile alllll the time
    he will make me laugh
    and he will so dearly totally appreciate me

    he will look deeply into my eyes
    entranced by them
    he will see much more than just my eyes
    he will feel worlds move as he looks at me
    into me

    yeah, the one for me will be a breath of fresh air
    he will be a happy happy person
    and happy, so very very happy to be around me

    this is how it will be

    this is how things will turn out

    there can no other way

    Last edited by Wild and Beautiful; 06-19-2017 at 08:42 PM. Reason: write some more

  7. #517
    lots if money came to me the last couple of days

    infact every day i now have lots of money abundance
    my intention of starting this thread those years ago was to celebrate and enjoy money abundance

    i now have that

    i have it way more than i had it before

    and it's nice to celebrate things that are going well in my life

    i will ask for money to fall out of the sky onto me
    and will visualize it falling down and making it's way to me
    to gather up nicely around me
    i will count out the notes in my hand, adding them up as i go
    and see the notes flying thru the air to me, making their way eagerly to me cause they wanna be with ME!!

    i ordered some new boots
    i was wanting a specific type in a specific colour and i had a coupon to get 15% off my order
    and as i talked to someone who had the same type i was going to buy, i learned that i didn't need to buy the more advanced model like i thought i would have to, but that the cheaper one would do the job even better infact, and was just as perfect for me
    so i ordered them online and got free shipping as well
    they will be here very soon

    then i wanted another pair to wsear straight away in the meantime but in a slightly different style
    i decided in my mind that 80 would be my maximum amount i wanted to pay for them
    i thought that would be nice! then i left it at that

    i searched online and came across a nice looking pair, and saw that it had 66 off! gosh, and that it was 79
    mmm that's good, haha so i got them
    shipping was very cheap at only 4 and i got them a day later
    they fit perfectly and are exactly what i want

    i am blessed that i can just ~buy what i want~ when ever i feel like it
    these boots are not cheap types and i have been considering them for quite a couple of months now
    and the other day i decided, i made it my intention that it was going to be an easy purchase for me - i was going to get the exact pair i wanted with the 15% discount, i ended up saving just on 30 with them, and i wanted a pair to wear immediately that would be beautiful and exciting and perfect for me, and i got them right away!

    i have lots of little money trees growing happily away
    as i am being fed by mature money trees shedding their note leaves onto me

    yesterday i went to the movies and got my usual treat of a free movie with my movie deal, and free parking as well and 20% off my cup of tea as well
    it's just pennies, but they all add up!

    tea always tastes nicer when it is cheaper!
    the movie was lots of fun and i love going every week
    this is my treat and i appreciate that it is all free
    all i had to do was buy an insurance deal thru the provider to get free movie passes every week for a year hurray!

    the movies are my escape from reality

    but then again, that's kinda funny, because my reality is now actually just like a movie ha ha ha
    since i created it
    ha ha ha!!!
    and yeah, it's funny to sit there in the theatre and see my own life played infront of me as well

    every day is kinda like movie day for me infact
    it's always fun and exciting and thrilling

    also the other day i was playing a guessing game with a new mate
    oh my, what a perfect example of a man he is for sure!
    as soon as i saw him i fell immmediatley in love with his eyes and his ambience
    he is so incredibly beautiful and perfect and YES, he is the man i want as my mate (well not that exact specific version as he is spoken for) but i will get one exactly like him that rocks my boat
    ooh gosh, it was absolute heaven to be by his side
    i really very much enjoyed myself in his presence
    every thing about him oozed yesssssss y e s y e s y e s to me
    any way my game, i love to make games fun, and i was guessing a name of someone close to him whom i'd never met
    so i wanted 3 guesses, and yes that condition was allowed in the game
    anyway, i immediately got the first letter right!
    he was slightly amused
    then i blurted out a name and he shook his head
    then i gushed another one out one second later and i was spot on
    he was very very amused and a little shocked
    he looked at my quizzically and asked how i knew?
    and i said ofcourse id didn't but i had relied on my intuition to guess
    so i won myself a drink for that
    was super tasty infact haha

    i'm pretty good infact at guessing people's name
    i just sort of let the alphabet roll easily in my mind as i look at my subject and for some reason a letter will just jump out at me
    and in the case of names a couple will come by but one will stick in my mind more than the others

    that's the way i guessed the name of my no1 driftwood
    he came up to me and i wanted to know his name that exact day, that exact moment and he introduced himself to me, and apart from the first letter i got his name spot on!
    it was unreal
    i always get a thrill when this happens

    so, yes i had lots of fun playing my guessing games

    and lots of money came to me easily

    yesterday i got 21 free from my favourite grocery store as i redeemed money on my points, that was brilliant as i got a couple things that i will definitely use
    and i had 30 of groceries paid for me as well
    thank you!!!
    plus a voucher took 7.50 off my total as it was over a certain amount
    and i got to use a voucher that gave me 3 in points on top of all that! goodness me!
    loyalty gets me quite alot haha

    love money

    yes !!!
    yes yes yes
    i love money
    and i love fun
    and i love things for free
    and i love having fun
    and i love love
    so in love
    so in love with love
    and fun and happy and fun and smiles and love
    and love and fun and happy
    in love with love
    and money

    money IS love

    i love money

    thank you xxxxxxx

  8. #518
    yesterday i wrote a post and when it came to posting it, the computer refused to do it
    the funny thing is that it was about me reaching for relief and i knew i only had to write it once, and get it out of my system, and i felt that it most probably would Not post, haha, because every time i start lower on the emotional scale, my posts usually are not able to post on here (this has happened a few times)
    i suppose my thread has a nice high vibe to it that i would be doing myself a disservice if i ranted a little on here haha

    i have been reading what RichKing
    wrote about his experience of using the wallet processand i am going to do what he did
    i love the idea of just sitting there, looking for things to spend the money on

    i am going to try this new game

    my car needed a repair this week and i put it in on thursday, hoping it would be fast and tiny and hopefully free for me
    well, the mechanic who took my call and welcomed me at the centre was such a good hearted man, so incredibly nice, and the mechanic that looked at my car was an absolute angel - he even took me over to my car and showed me the part and exactly what was wrong with it. he explained everything, we talked about any cures or preventions, and albeit there were none for my car and we both joked that it at least kept him in a job! ofcourse this is true
    and it ended up that i am now carless for nearly 5 days and it will cost 400
    so, i was feeling very appreciative that at least i had given him work to do and that he was in a job with his company and had a living
    infact when i think of it this way, i feel immense appreciation that my car has something that needs repaired in it
    which is kinda crazy because i was truly wanting an easy cheap fix for my car
    then today my mama offered to pay the bill for me
    but i am feeling that no, it's rather immense and i should pay for it all myself as i use the car all the time and it's my job as a daughter to support and take care of her
    and besides, my work, which i love with all my heart, my dream job has provided me with enough money in y account to pay for this

    so i think it is time to bring more money easily and effortlessly into my life by other means as well
    it has been a while since i got a cheque thru the mail
    and i love getting letters!
    always exciting, especially cheques
    and it's been a while since i won something
    though i have been given many things i have wanted for free lately!
    and every day i always get good deals, so i think it's time to play this game and have some fun

    in the meantime, it will just be a great exercise for me, because i truly have come to the place of just adoring and loving money for what it is
    a beautiful piece of artwork on a piece of long lasting material that brings much happiness to me

    my early work on here gave me huge appreciation for the value of a note and the intricate artwork on it and much appreciation for the machinations of it's birth and journey in life
    so i do love money and totally equate money with love
    money is a sharing of love - and a giving of love and a receiving of love
    and i do so love money

    more would be nice!
    i want more money!!!
    i want more

    for me, and to spread around
    since i am such a generous giver of love

    i am also going to write a bit about my car and how i love and so appreciate him
    i have named him but rarely call him by his name
    the other week my brother was in my car with me, as i was taking him to a store out of town
    and by instinct he gently rubbed the dash and said how old is your car now, and i said 11, and still going strong
    so my brother appreciates him as much as me!

    i do lust after other models - as we all do haha
    i have 4 dream cars that i want to have all at the same time

    maybe i will be getting a new car in my life soon?
    imagine if money fell out of the sky onto me
    enough money to go and buy one of my dream cars
    that feels nice and exciting

    and i would give my 11yo car a decent service and perfect detailing job, inside and out including the engine block, and make sure that it was in a perfect condition for a new owner - then i would place an ad on gumtree and put a respectable market price on it, and i am sure that a young lad would come by wanting his first set of wheels, and if he had the nerve to haggle the price down with me, because i would already have manifested my dream car, i would relent right away, haha, or maybe after a little bit of haggling and laughing with him and then my car would be his! and we would be happy and excited
    i would have had a good laugh seeing him haggle for the first time with me, we would both be in stitches infact, as i would have made a game out of it as i don't need the money from the sale, having manifested more than enough for my new car with plenty to spare, so this experience will just be for fun and to make sure that my car goes to someone with a big heart who will appreciate him
    and cause i'm kinda beautiful and kinda sexy he will feel a spark between me and him as well, aha
    aaahhhh so perfect!
    now that would be a brilliant unfolding!

    thank you
    nice to so easily go into this
    this is all for fun
    nothing serious is going on here
    Last edited by Wild and Beautiful; 06-24-2017 at 12:43 PM. Reason: highlighted link

  9. #519
    today i asked the Universe to let me see a new photo of him (yeah, my lover i just had, the one that is still in my mind, who comes in often still)

    so today after i went to my playground and had some fun with a couple of the regular boys there, a new one came in and we chatted away
    he was such a delicious boy to talk to! oh my, his voice was sublime, it was totally my pleasure to listen to him
    then i walked into town to my mamas, because we had arranged to go for dinner to macdonalds when i arrived
    as i was walking to hers i took a shortcut thru the train station and as i came out a couple boys caught my eye, and mine theirs
    well, one was dressed up kinda like the boys in my profession though i sensed that this one was merely a fashionista haha tryna be trendy in his dress sense, so i laughed it off and as they were going my way, i walked by his side for a little bit before cutting thru a park
    i knew he would enjoy me walking by him! - i could feel it precisely!

    anyway, i got to my mamas, and a few minutes later we went to macs
    and ordered our tasty meal
    i had prepaved my day and asked for lots of laughs and lots of fun and ofcourse some handsome hot boys for me to admire, and ofcourse i wanted to see a new pic of my lover
    so we sat at my favourite spot by the window and yes, lots of hot boys were passing by, it was so pleasurable
    and i thanked the Universe as i munched away
    then mama was playing with her snapchat, as was i because we both have it, but for different people
    so she was laughing away at the ridiculuous snaps she was getting and i was joining in laughing at them too
    then i had a brain wave and searched for my lover on her snapchat - to see if it was a different profile from the one on my phone (as i was kinda doing the stalking thing ha ha ha - well, not really, just keeping him there, by my side hahaha)
    so as i brought his name up
    oh my god!!!
    his snap had a profile pic that was not visible on my phone?!
    goodness me, so i was very excited about that
    and all the time my mama was saying hey, just be careful with those buttons and your fingers, no adding him as a friend!
    so luckily my fingers kept away from the buttons and he wasn't accidentally added, haha
    but gosh!
    i was so excited at that pic
    so i thanked the Universe

    you know, every single time i ask the Universe to show me a NEW pic of my crush - it does it!!
    without fail!
    i don't ask that often infact, and most of the time i expect to not see a pic at all
    i am always just a little curious though as to where i may be seeing this new pic

    so that was fun
    and then when i got home i saw another pic that he recently put up
    it totally made me melt to pieces!
    and that's why i was inspired to write this love story to him
    that yes, he shone the light of source on me
    and yes, i am shining the light of source on him and on me
    i am a beautiful sexy sexy hot hot woman, hell yeah! i sure am
    and i know he is still enamoured with me

    our physical connection is like fireworks!
    so yes, i am on his mind too
    and yes, his desire for a relationship is strong
    and yes, he would love one with me
    i know that
    he has said this to me

    anyway, just happy to have seen those 2 pics today
    and had lots of fun with my mama

    well, that is not the end of my story
    because as i was sitting at the window with my mama, looking out, i was drinking my tea and had finished my chips and picked up my bag with the chocolate donut in it,
    but ugh! it wasn't the donut i ordered, it was a muffin haha
    so i took it along to the counter
    and whom should i see there - looking at me - but those 2 boys from earlier at the train station that had walked alongside me for 20m before i veered off
    ha ha ha omg! here they were at the other end of town, in the same macs as me, and it was an hour later, so it's not like they had followed me either
    well, that was very funny indeed!
    i had been given the muffin precisely so that i would have to go to the counter to exchanged it for my donut and there waiting for me would be those 2 boys! lol
    the Universe sure knows how to play with me and make me laugh ALL the time
    such a great sense of humour!
    really, all i have to do is relax and set my intentions for love and fun and happy times and it delivers every single time!
    oh yeah - and with HOT BOYS TOO lolol

    so much fun!
    so much FUN FUN FUN!
    so much fun, so much love

    it is easier for me to appreciate him when i think of him
    nicer and far more pleasurable to just milk what i was feeling when i was with him

    ooooh the feelings were so incredible!

    truly, they were so incredible

    i saw this piece here from
    paradise-on-earth thread, and had to borrow it
    the bits that stood out to me

    love this so much

    and at the basis of the intense interaction i had with him
    it really was just a feeling of such intense deep deep love for me
    being with him
    and loving myself

    and when he was not there, i was missing that connection

    but i have it back now
    and am just loving myself and reliving those bits that make me feel this way
    loving myself up

    love this so much!
    and yes, i am guilty of pursuing this hahaha

    And when you are being held as the object of attention of someone,
    and as they are holding you as their object of attention,
    they are appreciating you and they are tapped into Source Energy
    in their appreciation, there is a flooding of pure positive energy
    all over you that is a very good feeling.

    In fact, for many people, the first time they really feel the gaze
    of Source Energy upon them is in that situation of being in love
    where someone cares about them enough to give them a lot of attention,
    and wants enough to feel good about them that they are pretty much,
    especially in the first part of the relationship,
    connected with Source Energy as they are doing their gazing,
    so you say, "Ooo, this feels good!"

    -And there is such a thirst for that in most people all of their life,
    because you came from this energy that felt like that

    and then entered an environment with enough contrast,
    that many of you sort of lost sight of that.

    And so when you find it again, it is so delicious that you want to maintain it,

    and you struggle to maintain this relationship forever more-
    just because you remember so much tasting it through that relationship.

    What that is, even though there is another person involved,
    what that is is the other person's ability, through your interaction,
    to influence you in a stronger, more often way than you were
    accustomed to before your coming together.

    It is that connection to Source Energy,
    that really is at the basis of all of what you call 'being in love.'

    but it's all good though

    had a new boy come into my life in the last few weeks
    and really, the way he looks at me, oh my god!
    truly i just melt around him
    we have only had a few interactions
    but every single one has been such an incredible pleasure - for both of us
    that i know, and he knows, that we want more

    this one is a natural to be with
    there is no hard work
    this one is just appreciation appreciation appreciation all the way

    he really is a beautiful man
    i am excited for our next encounter
    and in the meantime i am milking the encounters we have already had

    it's nice to remember those encounters
    with this one
    with that one
    and as i fantasize about what i want
    it's nice to make up encounters that will play out

    just so delicious these boys
    breathtakingly handsome deliciousness
    the most beautiful creation in all of the Universe

    Last edited by Wild and Beautiful; 06-26-2017 at 12:41 AM. Reason: colour it up

  10. #520
    so i was feeling lost

    i still hadn't quite got back to the old me
    the in love me
    the unconditional me
    the endless lover me
    the constant appreciator me

    and i picked up my book AAIIG

    and asked the Universe to choose the best page for me to open, so that i could -fix- myself

    well, it opened on the page just before magical creation box, and i read the words on the page beside it, Abe talked about endless appreciation and looking for the simplest of things to see around you that please you

    so i did that for the 10 minutes before i left home tonight

    and a feeling of incredible LOVE swept thru me

    this is what i have been missing








    all will be well now
    i can breathe easily
    and i know all will be well

    thank you stars, from my deepest deepest heart
    i am home again

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